I'm a big boy now (all grown up....almost)
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: The House Decision
SO hey. Things have changed a little.

I actually came to a big life decision this last week. I have decided to officially join the grown up workd and *gulp* buy a house.

My brother is a mortgage broker and I have set up a meeting with him for 2/1/05 to discuss my future. But of course things had to come to a head for me to make this momentous decision, right?

Currently I am living in a two bedroom apartment with a female roommate. Rent is dirt cheap and I have plenty of room for my dog (shy) and I. And it was really cool when my roommate had a boyfriend because she stayed at his house 5 out of 7 nights a week. So life was good for about a year. I had all the benefits of having a room mate (low rent, utilities, etc) with none of the annoyances (lack of privacy, cleaning up after a slob).

But now the room mate has broken up with her boyfriend and now she is home virtually 24 hours a day leaving her dirty dishes in the sink and letting her cats shit all over the place. So um yea, good times.

So I talked with my brother and went over my credit with him. Thankfully my only debt is my car and about $1200 in credit card debt, which I plan to get paid off in the next year. So it appears I am in good shape to get a good house.

Although this apparently means staying in a RED state. UGH. And I have to stay at my current job through at least August (double UGH). But actually owning my own place in 20 years or so is actually a good thought. I am tired of paying rent and not getting anything for it.

So this COULD be a good thing.

We shall see.....

Work Life
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: The "Not so non profit" Non Profit
I have come to a decision that I need a new fucking job. Granted, almost two years of being a credit counselor have taken their toll, both physically and mentally.

I have also come to the realization that this "non profit" that I used to be proud to say I worked for is really about as corrupt as any major corporation.

I thought this employer actually cared about it's employees and wanted to be an example of a stellar workplace. Um, yea. I was wrong.

In other words, it's all about the dollars.


Things have gotten shockingly bad relatively quickly. All in a span of about five months actually.

First came the shakeup of our managers where all three were sent packing and replaced with over bearing, hard asses with zero people skills.

Then came the Hurricanes where the employees were treated as someone to warm the seats and were ordered to come in to work, often ignoring the curfew and with no regard to our personal safety.

Now comes the micro-managing. Gone is the relatively freedom I had to conduct my day where I was given the benefit of the doubt to manage my time. Now, as the rumor mill has it, I won't even have the freedom to take a piss.

And folks, being micro managed is one way to make me find the door.

But there is more.

Nepotism runs rampant at this place.

One of the new managers, affectionately dubbed "the Little Emperor" is married to the human resources manager. So he is his wife's boss.

And I just found out through SURFERGIRL that the President of the company, who I once held in high esteem is nothing but a NEO CON rat. Apparently.

I just found the big dirty secret of my "not for profit" non profit. Apparently the President of the company is married to the CEO. And they had taken TWO "business" trips to Hawaii last year.

No wonder the IRS has been sniffing around.

Is it time to leave yet? Yea, pretty much so.

So, it's time to leave. More on the job search as it progresses.

Today was my first day back to work after the election and I still feel like someone died. Plus the 28 people trudging to my desk asking if I was OK were well meaning, but annoying.

Eventually Work Justin ran interference and kept of the well wishers away from me but it still amazes me that we are not in the majority that view this President as a failure.

Neo-cons love to point out that W got the highest vote total of any President. I concede that, but please acknowledge that John Kerry got the second highest vote total in any Presidential election.

Please acknowledge that more people voted to keep W out of the White House thanever voted for Ronald Reagan.

Unfortunately they don't see it that way.

It's gonna be a fucking long four years.

Mood:  incredulous
Now Playing: Blonde's Open Letter to America
So America, you decided you wanted George W Bush. Congratulations. You fucking got him. And I hope you are fucking miserable the next four years.

Maybe then, you will be ready for a change. Maybe then, this flawed administration will affect you PERSONALLY so you will care again to change.

So many topics to care about. Iraq. The floundering economy. Privatization of Social Security. Lack of Healthcare for the working class. Corporate greed. Halliburton. Unemployment. A future draft. The environment. And the list goes on.

And what did America make their decision on? Guns, Gays, and God. Yet again. And we really failed this time. We owed this election to our children, to the world to OURSELVES.

We needed to take the opportunity to look deep within ourselves and see why the rest of the world really hates us the way that they do. Why the are willing to devote themselves to killing us.

But we failed. We failed America. It's all about God, Guns, and the Gays.

MORAL VALUES was the leading reason why people voted for Bush. Ahead of terrorism. And the economy. And the dozens of reasons already listed. MORAL fucking values decided this election.

NO WONDER THE REST OF THE WORLD LAUGHS AT US.

Why did Kerry give up when he said every vote would be counted? I am
disappointed in him AND in this stupid country.

I wish the blue states could secede from the union. But we can't. And we are led by the people that take the stories of arks, burning bushes, and all of the other Bible fables as historical fact.

The hypocrisy is apalling.

They believe that if one man and woman are married THAT is morality. They
don't realize Bush is immoral. It is immoral to lie, to wage war against
innocent countries, to declare farm salmon the same as wild salmon thus allowing the wild salmon to go extinct.

I worry most for the earth. Kerry's environmental record was impeccable. Bush will now get to drill for oil in Alaska, and we will continue to be dependent upon foreign oil. The
national forests will continue to be logged and mined. We will continue to use up the world's natural resources and discard them like a spent condom.

Bush is a reckless big spender and a blunderer in the world arena. He will continue to build those permanent military bases in Iraq that Kerry vowed to tear down. The draft WILL be instituted when North Korea and Iran act up again.

We will continue to support inhumane governments in the interest of sustaining our way of life. We will continue to let the Saudi's buy into our country and make us even more dependent on this humane regime. We will continue to kiss China's ass to get them to try to persuade North Korea to play nice. How can we be so indebted to two of the worst human rights records?

Oh, but Bush is a born again Christian and is married to one woman, so he's
moral. He will appoint Supreme Court judges that will outlaw abortion, and we will return to the days of back-street abortionists--maimed and dead women.

American had a chance to choose a decent moral man and chose the corrupt, hate filled, evil schemer.

We had a chance to choose an ntelligent man and chose the dumb one.

We had a choice between a war hero and a deserter and chose the deserter.

We chose the destroyer of the environment over the protector.

We chose the warmonger and divider instead of the peacemaker.

And yes, there are TWO Americas this morning. By no means is 51% of the vote a mandate of the Bush policies. It is a bare passage of his ideology.

And like four years ago, Bush has pledged to be a uniter when all he has done is drive people further apart. The racial disparity in this country has not been greater than under this President yet no one seems to care. Gays are treated like third class citizens and this President wants to use the US Constitution to legalize his hate, and people do not seem to care.

The majority of the world still hates us, but instead of trying to understand why, we move forward and deepen that divide. And no one seems to care.

But it is a sad day for America today. John Kerry, in the interest of NOT dividing this country even more has conceded. I am disappointed in that decision, as most of the left are, but understand that we need to build.

As beaten as I am right now, I am not ready to give up. My beliefs and ideology are not shaken, and my will is still strong. And there ARE 55,000,000 million Americans that believe the same as I. We seem to be the minority, but I don't buy that.

Too many people that share my beliefs need to unite even more and not let us be beaten down by the hysterical right.

We need to fix the voting system and these horrible touch screens that don't allow a paper record. It's idiocy that I can make a ATM withdrawel in Bangcock and have it debitted from my account immediately. Yet, there is NO PAPER record of my votes?

And we need to fix the electoral college. It's antiquated and flawed.

We need to find out WHY the young vote deserted us. We need to find WHY the Latino's supported Bush and why any blacks at all would desert us.

We need a lot of time to heal and lick our wounds but we cannot relent in our quest to make America the strong, FAIR, country we all know it can be.

It all starts tomorrow and it all starts with us.

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OFFICIAL STATEMENT FROM BLONDE:

Many in the world of bloggers are encouraging acceptance now that Kerry has conceded, an endorsement of support for George Bush because he is our President.

Blonde will not support Bush. I recognize that he is our President but I will continue to expose the injustices in his Administration.

Blonde believes George Bush has been a terrible President, perhaps the worst ever, and objects to virtually every policy he has implemented.

The thought that he will pick the next Supreme Court Justices is terrifying. How many more will die in Iraq and elsewhere because of his unilateral decision to invade Iraq while terror threats from al Qaeda abound?

Our criminal justice system is not fair. Innocent people are languishing in jails and on death row. Mandatory minimum sentences and the wrong-headed drug war are locking up thousands needlessly at great expense to the taxpayer. Our civil liberties are under siege as never before, largely due to Bush's appointment of John Ashcroft as our Attorney General.

Bush's faith-based programs and continual expression of his personal religious beliefs are offensive to those who do not share those beliefs and those who value the separation of church and state mandated by our Constitution.

Blonde will continue to bash, fight, and mock Bush. He may be our President but he has NOT EARNED my support.

And for those that that I would just disappear with a Kerry loss. You are out of luck. I am going NOWHERE.

It's me
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: A new beginning
Greetings and Salutations from soon to be war torn Florida. War torn if that bastard George W Bush gets re-elected, by hook or by crook, tomorrow. Of course if all the votes are actually counted tomorrow, it's going to be a Kerry landslide. Don't underestimate the wrath of the pissed off Florida voter. But this blog is not about politics. Or really my personal life. That has being done in another blog on another site, far, far, away. Most of you reading this have no doubt migrated from the old blog. And I will continue to post in that blog as well. But in that blog, I became trapped. Too many of you got to know me too well. And I admit, it has turned into a highly partisian rant on most entries. This fucking election had consumed me and I turned that blog into my personal soapbox. And I used it to vent. And to rant. And to bash Bush. But you know what? I stopped WRITING. So hopefully on these new pages, I will get my mojo back and learn how to create and write again. Some of the entries on here will be simply cut and paste entries from my other site. Some will go off in a different direction. I'm excited for the new beginning. So quickly about me. I am male. Gay. A Surfer. A jock. A punk. Compassionate yet sarcastic. Cynical but caring. And I am cocky as hell. I admit it. I'm a fucking enigma trapped in a riddle. You love me or you hate me. And I'm Blonde. My surname comes from the great movie "Reservoir Dogs" and the Michael Madsen character, Mr. Blonde. Basically whenever I have to sign a petition or something and don't want to give my real name, I sign it Mr. Blonde. So hence it shall go that my surname on here be Blonde as well. So it's a new start for me. A new beginning. Enjoy the ride.